I have been asking God to show me the areas of sin in my life which I have become immune to; those sins that I have treated as acceptable or not too bad. It is not a prayer for the feint of heart!
One of my biggest problem areas is in my judgement of other people; worse, my judgement of other moms. As someone who suffers from vast quantities of mom guilt and who constantly questions myself and my actions and decisions I find it unfathomable that I would be so harsh in my judgement of others.
I want to take this time to apologise to all those who I have judged and to those who I have caused to judge. There have been times when I have expressed judgement and have caused others to do the same. Instead of building you up in God, I caused you to stumble. I am sorry for that, for not being a good friend. In particular I want to apologise publically and openly to my cousin Bex. I am so sorry for judging your method of putting your kids to bed; I am sorry for presuming I knew better than you. I am sorry for being a hypocrite as we now use exactly the same method with ours. I want to honour you for what a brilliant mum you are; for how sacrificially you love your children; how little you complain and how you give and give and give. You are such an example to me of giving your whole heart and energy for our children. I am sorry and I love you.
I also want to appeal to those who know me personally. Please help me in this. Ask me how I am doing in my mind; if you hear me judging another, call me out on it. I cannot overcome this alone.