Hartsvriendinne
This is an Afrikaans word and there is no really great English equivalent. Directly translated it is “hearts friends” and the suffix implies it is a friend who is a girl. I guess you could use words such as bestie to try describe what it means. For me, it denotes those friends who know you […]
Penny for your thoughts
Last week I actually got to listen to the sermon in church, for the first time in a long long time. Peter was in creche and Aunty B took Tim for me – as a side note, looking after a baby in church is a really great way to help a mom out; it lets […]
Still waters
Still waters run deep. This is not usually an expression used to describe me. It is almost the exact opposite of what I am. My mind runs at about 100 thoughts a minute. Even when life appears together; my mind is probably all over the place. I think of all the possible outcomes and even […]
Emotional Diabetes
I have recently diagnosed myself with emotional diabetes. And yes, I did just make that term up. It makes complete sense though. A phrase often used to describe diabetes is ‘starvation in the midst of plenty’. There is loads of sugar in the blood but the cells are dying because the sugar can’t get from […]
Searching for significance
I used to have a life. I used to be able to go out when I wanted to and wander the shops. I could go to movies and out to supper. I could play board games and wake up late. I could meet my friends at a moments notice. I used to be someone. I […]
Chaos
That one word sums up my life right now. Every day I wake up expecting things to go the way I have planned and every day I am surprised when things fall apart. I am slowly starting to realise that my life is chaos. Very very slowing coming to realise. I have two children under […]
Three little words
It has been a bad day! We are moving Peter to a bed and he is not a fan. It takes forever to get him to settle for his nap and he isn’t napping for very long and he is not sleeping through the night either. Last night we were up a few times putting […]
Matter of Perspective
I rocked yesterday. Like really – I was amazing! I did 3 loads of laundry and swept my house and washed dishes and drew with Peter and dealt with Tim needing to changed 3 times and have a bath cos he spat up everywhere. I packed away all the clothes that Peter had unpacked from […]
New every morning
After writing on Friday I felt so refreshed and as if my tanks had been topped up. Which is a very good thing because we had youth camp this weekend and all sorts of issues came up that our teens need help with and we came back home on Sunday feeling absolutely exhausted. Now, what […]
Empty
That is the only word I can use to describe myself right now. Empty. My emotions have run the gamut this week from excited to stressed to happy to feeling ‘less than’ to exhausted to feeling like I have no idea how to be a mother. I have landed up on empty. Not the empty […]